So, I went in this morning for a sonogram and basically, there is no baby. The space where the baby was supposed to be was empty. It was definitely a sad moment when Joey and I saw the image. Nobody had to tell us something was wrong-we knew immediately.
The technical term for what I have is: molar pregnancy(click the words if you want a good description of it-I can't even explain it very well myself). With this type of pregnancy, you have all of the symptoms, actually some symptoms like nausea and fatigue can be magnified, you test positive for pregnant, miss a period, etc. but instead of a baby forming, its a mass of cells that the medical world terms as "moles". They keep on growing and multiplying. So, anyways, next Tuesday, the 9th, I'm scheduled for a D&C.
Joey was so sweet and took the rest of the day off of work to be with me as I was a bit down today. He was driving separately and stopped and bought me flowers on the way too:) And I have already had such awesome friends do such sweet things for me. I already have babysitters lined up for Monday(pre-op stuff) and Tuesday(surgery day). I feel so blessed to be surrounded by so many wonderful friends that are so willing to help. Flowers, gifts, meal offers, babysitting, I'm so lucky. I don't know what I'd do without you and your love and support.
After surgery, I'll have to go in every 2 weeks for bloodwork to make sure my hcg pregnancy hormone levels are lowering. Most people's go back to normal within weeks and thats what I'm hoping for. If not, that means that the growths have come back and are growing again. Could be fixed with another D&C, could become cancerous even. However, the chance of that is really really low, so I'm trying not to worry about it too much. Oh, and another negative about this, we can't try to conceive again for 6 months:(
Anyways, maybe this was too much information! But I wanted to share what was going on with my blog friends. I know everything happens for a reason, though we can't see the "big picture" while on this Earth, going through our trials, I know this is how it was supposed to be. I have faith that we will have another baby(or 2 or 3!). We just might have to wait a little longer than we'd like. I have found comfort in knowing that Heavenly Father loves me and things will all work out in the end.
I'll let you know how things go next week. Keep me in your prayers if you don't mind! I love you guys!