Monday, September 08, 2008

Tomorrow

So, tomorrow morning is the surgery. I'm definitely feeling nervous. Anytime you're put under its something to be a little worried about, but I know I'll be fine. I just really hate hospitals! At least I've gone through this before(I've had 2 miscarriages in the past and one of them I had a D&C with) so I know what to expect. My feelings since I've found out this bad news have been such a roller coaster. At first, shock, then a little sadness, then I felt a little ticked, then I was feeling fine, then this afternoon sadness hit me again like a ton of bricks. I had to go to the hospital to do some pre-op bloodwork and there were about 5 adorable newborn babies surrounding me in the waiting area(they were there for that 2 week blood test) and it just made me sad again. When I got home, I finally let it all out and had the good cry I needed. I hadn't cried good about this since it happened, just a little at the drs office when we found out and a little bit in the car that day driving home. Thankfully, this afternoon Joey was home and took care of his crazy wife:) He gave me some candy and I was all better(its a good thing my birthday was last week and I have a HUGE birthday stash of candy still leftover-its really helping me through this! :)

So, I'm feeling a lot better right now. Joey gave me a blessing and I feel a lot of strength and comfort from it. I'm still nervous, but I know everything will be okay. Anyways, please keep me in your prayers tonight and tomorrow morning. I need them!

29 comments:

mamapickle said...

You'll be fine tomorrow. I am glad you let yourself have a good cry. Before too long this will all pass over and life will feel normal again. Have a BIG bowl of ice cream :) That always makes me feel better. I'm thinking of you.

The Bright Family said...

you will be in my prayers--I can tell you are one great Mom with many spirits waiting and wanting to belong to your special family--patience is a virtue right?!? you are in my thoughts :)

100 Percent Cottam said...

i'll be thinking of you, chickadee! hope things go well. hugs!

The Bright Family said...

you might want to drive by the naked booty statue a time or two :)

the duchess said...

Girl, you're a rock. If you feel sad then be sad. When it's time to be happy you'll be that, too. We'll all be sending our prayers and best wishes to you tomorrow. ;o)

Kristi said...

All will be well!! I have faith :) And what a blessing (literally :) that your husband can give you a blessing and you can have that with you tomorrow. You are definitely in our thoughts and prayers.

-Melissa- said...

Holly, you know you are very much in my thoughts and prayers tonight and tomorrow.

(((hugs)))

devri said...

Everyone already said what I was going to say,

So I will say this, your in my prayers...

Tiburon said...

You are for sure in my thoughts and prayers. I hope everything goes well. Sending major hugs your way.

Jennalee said...

I'm thinking about you too...take care tomorrow...

Marie said...

You must certainly have my deepest thoughts and prayers Holly. Don't you just love the priesthood. Whatever would we do without it to bless our lives. Praying all goes well and sending over big hugs...

Jan said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers too. You haven't left my thoughts since I heard -- hang in there. The greatest gift we have I think is knowing that there really is a plan and some order to what happens in our lives. We are loved and cared for -- and you certainly are! Love you!

Patty said...

Good luck this morning Holly! You will be on my mind all day. I love you!! Call when you get the chance.

hoLLy said...

thanks everyone:) i'm reading these before we head out and all of your comments have brought me comfort. its nice to know there are people out there thinking about me!

love u!

Anayansi said...

oh holly, my heart aches for you. but i know that the surgery will go well. we are praying for you.
love,
anayansi

Tara D said...

Everything will be fine, Holly. Don't you worry! I'll say a prayer for you, also. I love you!!!

jOeY said...

I just wanted to update everyone. Holly is out of surgery and is doing fine. We hope to be home soon.

P.S. Thank you all for your kind words. Holly is so blessed to have such friends and family.

swainsRus said...

I am so sorry to hear about this! You are in our thoughts and prayers. Good luck, may there be a speedy recovery and may your soul find peace.

Katie said...

Thinking about you all day today. Lots of prayers headed your way. May you feel as much love today as the incredible amount you give out to everyone around you. =)

Erica and Orlando said...

Sorry to hear what you have been going through. We will keep you in our prayers. Hope you have a speedy recovery.

HIRSCHI FAMILY said...

I got the text and I am glad to know things have gone well so far. You are a strong woman and you will get through this. You have been and will continue to be in our family prayers. I am grateful for your friends and family that have shown their love and support to you and Joey. I love ya!

devri said...

I was just thinkin' about ya, hope the surgery went fine, and hope you are ok!!

-Laura- said...

Hope everything went okay today. I was thinkin' about ya!

Rebecca said...

I hope it went well Holly. You've been in my thoughts and prayers.

Mindi said...

love you holly!!

hope you are on the mend.

Champion Family said...

Hey Holly, I've been thinking about you nonstop. Even though it sounds like you have enough, there's more candy on the way.

Grammy Staffy said...

Dearest Holly,
You have been in my heart and prayers. I am sending loads of good wishes and tons of cyber-candy your way.

Love, Grammy Lura

Olive Lucy said...

it's me you cynical SIL. anytime you want to cry i am here. I mean it.

cyndi/mom/nana said...

Sad to read this but I'm grateful you have such great friends that have rallied around you and all you have been going through. Know we love you and are praying for strength for all you have endured. Always in our prayers. love cyndi