So, tomorrow morning is the surgery. I'm definitely feeling nervous. Anytime you're put under its something to be a little worried about, but I know I'll be fine. I just really hate hospitals! At least I've gone through this before(I've had 2 miscarriages in the past and one of them I had a D&C with) so I know what to expect. My feelings since I've found out this bad news have been such a roller coaster. At first, shock, then a little sadness, then I felt a little ticked, then I was feeling fine, then this afternoon sadness hit me again like a ton of bricks. I had to go to the hospital to do some pre-op bloodwork and there were about 5 adorable newborn babies surrounding me in the waiting area(they were there for that 2 week blood test) and it just made me sad again. When I got home, I finally let it all out and had the good cry I needed. I hadn't cried good about this since it happened, just a little at the drs office when we found out and a little bit in the car that day driving home. Thankfully, this afternoon Joey was home and took care of his crazy wife:) He gave me some candy and I was all better(its a good thing my birthday was last week and I have a HUGE birthday stash of candy still leftover-its really helping me through this! :)
So, I'm feeling a lot better right now. Joey gave me a blessing and I feel a lot of strength and comfort from it. I'm still nervous, but I know everything will be okay. Anyways, please keep me in your prayers tonight and tomorrow morning. I need them!