Saturday, December 15, 2012

Sweet baby of mine

 I was just laying in bed one evening after dinner with my baby boy, cuddling and eating him up. Hes so super soft and smells so good. Irresistible really :) Joey snuck up and took pictures and I'm so glad he did. This is more than likely our last little one..this makes me sad...even though I don't feel like I could handle anymore kids! Its a bittersweet feeling for me. I feel like five is my limit though and we are happy where we are. But at the same time, I'm looking at each day with Wesley differently than I have with the other kids. I'm trying to treasure every moment even more with this little angel. Not that I didn't treasure my other kids, but you know what I mean:) Time goes by so fast and I don't want to have that "I didn't spend enough time with/didn't treasure these years with my kids when they were little" guilt that everyone seems to have. I try so hard every day to pause and stop whatever I'm doing to make sure I'm "present" in my kids lives. Someday they'll be grown and gone and that makes me sad to think about :( These are some of the best years of my life. I need to know that and realize that every day. Sometimes that's hard to do when you have so many responsibilities..caring for little ones is a challenge, rewarding and wonderful but also very hard at times. Some evenings when I pick up toys and I'm feeling frustrated because they went to bed and left a mess, I think to myself, someday I'm going to wish there were toys to pick up!(hopefully my kids give me lots of grandkids! :) I need to be grateful for where I am at in life right now and live more in the present. Its so hard to juggle the keep your house clean/housewife responsibilities thing with playing with and spending time with your kids. If you do one really well, then the other suffers and vice versa. Hard to find the perfect balance for me lately. But I've decided I'd rather my house be a little bit messier than I'd like if that means I will create one more memory with my children that day. So basically, I'm just warning everyone that my house has been messy lately.  ;)

Enjoy some of my favorite pictures ever. I love this Wesley boy. I'm grateful I've been able to experience this sweetness five times. So blessed.


Tara D. said...

Awwww, so sweet! It's a little bittersweet that this could be your last (COULD be). :-( Enjoy that leetle baby while he's little. :-)

Patty said...

These pictures are so precious! Love em!!